Those are the days I look back on now and again,
The best days of my life.
The times where nothing mattered,
But the four of us.
We were a team,
Just out to live a dream.
That ended less than a year ago.
Remember the days….
The days when we did random things,
Like take trips to Madison,
Or operation sassafras.
Oh how do I miss those days.
I remember my first trip to the rooster,
Just the four of us not knowing what to expect.
I miss our laughs, and our smiles,
Not ever thinking we could split.
But that day came, and it came soon.
It snuck up behind me,
Like a thick fog suffocating us.
None of us are who we were then,
But I
I am a simple girl,
I live a simple life.
Sometimes I think too simple,
Sometimes too complex.
I hate you,
I love you
I never know what I want,
Or what I'm here for.
All I know is,
I don't deserve to be here.
I hate you because you're beautiful,
And everything I'm not.
I love you because you're beautiful,
And everything I'm not.
I hate me,
I love me.
I don't know who I am,
Or whom I want to be.
All I know is that,
I am God's defect.
So imperfect,
That the devil wouldn't even want me.
Last night I had a dream that you were gone,
Last night I had a dream I wrote you a song.
The song was sad and never ending
My heart is broken and remains unmended
You were in Kansas and I was here alone
She was in college and one her own
The days grew longer
The songs sadness' grew stronger
Last night I had a dream that you were gone,
Last night I had a dream I wrote you a song.
My imagination took over
When I thought I saw you sitting behind my shoulder
You were drawing broken hearts and stars
with a little touch of lyrical bars
Cigarrette scents filled the air
While I thought I saw you playing with your beautiful brown hair
For my peer, bf, soul sister by Unknown-Star, literature
Literature
For my peer, bf, soul sister
I sit next to you everyday wondering,
Wondering how you've been
If your happy
Or if you even care
I miss your company and your compassion,
Compassion for me as your friend
You were always there for me in good & bad
helping me through thick & thin
I miss your wise words
But most of all i miss you as my peer
bestfriend
and soul sister
I sit and look at those memories
those picture of you and I
memories of how much fun we had
we were invinsible!
but i guess even superfriends die
die into cold dar enemies
enemies who won't even say hi
even as enemies you will still be my peer
bestfriend
and soul sister
I sit and think of ho
They may call me a slicer
they may call me a dicer
but all that I am is a pain reliever
I relieve pain from the mind
Which turns into physical pain
physical pain I can cope with
I press down hard
stroking my skin with that shinny beauty of mine
watching the blood gush out
gush out like a raging river
The blood drips down my skin like a leaky fosset
the blood makes me feel real
makes me feel alive instead of dead at the soul
It takes my mind off of all reality
I feel invisible to nature
no one shall bring me down from my twisted high
never shall I die
The wound is starting to heal now
I am now awakened a harsh reality that i
I wake up every morning
hoping to have enough courage to look in the mirror
every glance brings to me another tear
I hate the image that i see
it is so gross to me
All i see is one big imperfection
I need to get rid of this reflection
no beauty, no grace
god i can't stand to see my face
My stomach bulges my thighs touch
this shit is just too much
this image needs to go now
can't bare to look at this cow now
I punch this ugly beast with such rage
someone please put me in a cage
I grap the glass to slice & dice
to make me feel just a little nice
The lights go out, I am all alone
there is noe more mirror to see my ugly clone
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You are my secret that i cannot tell
you are my secret that makes me sit and dwell
you call me at night
to make my star shine so bright
we meet in your yard
where no one can bard
you meet me with a kiss
o god which I miss
we sit down and chat
just as we sat
you make me feel unique
so i don't have to wear my clinique
you seduce me with your smile
which seems to run on for miles
we start feeling each other up
oh yeah thats enough
I go down for a lay
just so I can stay
you go strong
what just went wrong
this rondevous has ended
this is not what i intended
where is my head
how the fuck did you get me in bed
I feel used
She sits up there in the clear blue sky
watching people live and die
He sits down there with an evil stair
wanting to burn human hair
Some people on earth live their lives
with guns and knives
others praise their God
so they aren't so odd
The angels and demons fight
over all human sight
this is the never ending war
which has been going on since the core
leave that innocent child alone
she says to her evil clone
He wants to watch them burn
that is his only concern
I am their guardian angel with white wings
Who is giong to take them to my palace to sing
I am a dark angel thats what I do
I am a dark angel & have come to take
There is a forse that carries me towards you
a suspicious field full of gravity
when the raindrops fall I know its my cue
my heat is breaking in this cavity
Im lonely knowing I can't have your heart
I want so badly to shine in your eyes
it's almost like I am falling apart
my soul is a desolate screaming sigh
Why can't I find another shining star
HELP I need out of this somber sadness
I'm like a trapt butterfly in a jar
trying to escape from this sick madness
I have desponded from my hopes and dreams
there is no other shinning knight for me
this flame was put out as it always seems
my heart will remain lost in this dark sea
Thi
My name is not Ashley,
I'm not some sweet, simpering slut,
i don't sleep around,
i don't suck dick
And i Don't where clothes that are held up entirely by hope.
My name is Bridget.
I'm a beautiful, brilliant babe,
with morals and a sense of humor,
I'm athletic and wear clothes that fit,
I have more then Half a brain
and i use it too
I don't cry when i break a nail
and i'm not some toy for guys to pass around
My name is Bridget
I speak my mind
and i have no regrets.
My name is Bridget
I swear like a salior
and i belch like a man
My name is Bridget
if i'm sorry you'll know.
If I hate you'll know.
If I love you yo
If you said no
I'd fall down and never get back up
If you said no
I'd break down with tears every night
If you said no
My world would fall apart around me
O-oh If you said no
If you just left me in the rain
If you tore my world apart
Once again I'd have nothing to live for
If you said no
It'd be just me and a world of darkness
If you said no
It's be just me living in a world of ruins
If you said no
I'd be living in a world of fire and flames
O-oh If you said no
If you just left me in the rain
If you tore my world apart
Once again I'd have nothing to live for
Oh if you said no
It would be just me
No shining white angel
N
There is a forse that carries me towards you
a suspicious field full of gravity
when the raindrops fall I know its my cue
my heat is breaking in this cavity
Im lonely knowing I can't have your heart
I want so badly to shine in your eyes
it's almost like I am falling apart
my soul is a desolate screaming sigh
Why can't I find another shining star
HELP I need out of this somber sadness
I'm like a trapt butterfly in a jar
trying to escape from this sick madness
I have desponded from my hopes and dreams
there is no other shinning knight for me
this flame was put out as it always seems
my heart will remain lost in this dark sea
Thi
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